Wait for Me

There is no turning back
Life marches on, line after line, banners waving
Only I wish it would sometimes
Stop and Look at me
Acknowledge my existence
That I am Part of the Parade
The world is a blind marching band
And I cannot keep up with its
Insignificant Urgency
I would rather wander through the forest glades
Breathing In
The Grandeur of small details
Touching soft petals, and often
Looking Up
Meaning is found in between the Lines
And wisdom in the Space to Breathe
Let the band rush On
Without Me
Just a Moment

Musings of Gods favor (and sense of humor :)

I was having a flashback yesterday of when I first became a Christian back in the mid-70's. I laugh when I think about this-sometimes even out loud.Haha Soon afterward I was looking at a catalog that my pastors wife had from her daughter in Ft Worth-I lived in Cumberland Md. It was from a  Christian college  that Debbie-the daughter-was starting to in the fall of '75. Something in me was thrilled and I wanted to go also. But it wasn't very long that reality set in-how could I afford it #1 AND I was a single parent with 4 children. I pitched the catalog up on her counter and that was the end of that.

Several weeks later I was in the yard hanging up clothes -yeah-remember that ladies ?-haha Anyway-I literally shook my fist in the air-because all of a sudden it seemed to me that the heavens had become brass. I had been enjoying sweetly daily fellowship with God and then -wala-Nothing.

When I shook my fist-I had an mental image of me throwing the catalog on the counter. I cried-without forethought actually-"God-If you want me to go there-please send someone to see my house." Now what I said and what I meant were two different things. What I was meant was -if I'm going to Texas I would have to sell my house- but I said "see" my house. There was no for sale sign in the yard nor had I mentioned this to anyone-this was a spur of the moment thing. But God honored my request :)

As I left the clothesline and went to step upon the back porch there was a woman standing there. I asked if I could help her and she said "I am embarrassed but every time we go past this place my Mom says "I wish I could see in that house and I always just look at her and go on but today she insisted that she wanted to "see" your house. I showed them both through-neither one of us mentioned anything about a sale-they looked and then went on their merry way.

As soon as they left I immediately fell to my knees and worshiped and cried for a long time. Then I said to God "ok-what I meant was-I have to sell this house -If this is really your will please send me a buyer and thank you." The next morning-mid week sometime-I put a home made for sale sign in the window. We were 7/10's of a mile off of the main road. Saturday a man knocked on my door very early and wanted to know what the price was and then could he go get his wife and come back in a little while.

When he came back-they both wanted the place-gave me a deposit and said that if I could be out in 2 weeks they would pay cash. As the 2nd semester of college started in 4  weeks the timing was perfect. I was awestruck and beginning an adventure.

When did God plant the "I want to see this house" in that woman who is nameless to me? Was he chuckling when I finally asked the question so he play this card :) Only He knows but this story has warmed my heart on many occasions. Sometime I will share the next "event" of this adventure!

Christ Will Remain In Christmas

    As I was at church speaking to the teachers and teenagers about our Christmas program later that day, I noticed a message on the black board. It read, "Merry X-mas". My first thought was, "What the, ha? This is a church, who would dare leave Christ out of Christmas, here?" I went over to it and very kindly, asked My daughter and her friend who put the message there? The other girl explained that she had. I said, "You did and excellent job with the art work in this sign, and it is very nice to wish those coming to the church tonight well, but when you use an X instead of Christ, you are taking Christ out of Christmas. "This is a church sweetie, there are those that will be offended by this message, and it really is a very nice job that you have done." "Also, Christ is the reason we are celebrating." "Would you please change the X and put in Christ instead"? She was not aware of these things previously, and readily agreed to change the message.
    Through this experience I learned something along with the girl. I learned that it is important to remember Christ is the reason we celebrate this joyous season. It is also important to realize that there are those, who are unaware that they are being offensive to others, when they leave Christ out. Some do not even intend to offend or bother others. Some are simply trying to save space, or shorten it up. As we celebrate Christmas, may we not get mad at others that choose to shorten this message, and jump down their throat. Rather, we could glorify God as we show them the love of Christ and joyfully explain, His love for us is the reason He came to earth. He is the reason we celebrate. This way, Christ will remain in Christmas, no matter what.

Slow Fade

  We all have our core values. The standard to which we hold everything up to. We have our lists of what we would never choose to do. We look at those around us who don't share our values and vow to never become like that. Then life happens.
  It starts with a thought. A lapse of self control. A second look. A slip of the tongue. A surrender to the pressure. It could be a judgmental opinion. An outburst of anger. A curiosity. An unkind word. One hit on a bottle. We tell ourselves that it won't happen again, but find that the next time it becomes a little easier. Then it becomes habitual.
 We begin to reason. Justify. Minimize. Until eventually, if we don't make the conscious effort to regroup, we lose sight of our original values, and in the process we lose sight of our own value. We get caught up in the slow fade. We look in the mirror and think again about those core values, but we no longer recognize the person staring back at us.
  We become disappointed. Disillusioned. Miserable. We need to be reminded of who we are in Christ. Not to condemn us, but to draw us back to the truth. We can then be in a place of conviction. Not to make us feel guilty, but to motivate us to re-examine our values because of our value. As we lean on His grace and mercy we can allow Him to guide us back to His heart. Right where we have wanted to be all along.

My Christmas Hat

I look forward to Christmas baking all year long. This year I decided that reaching out to our new neighbors would be my priority. I set the date for baking and distribution early in the season to keep stress low, and then I chose three different offerings--Glazed Ginger Bundt Cake, Wreath Bread, and Cinnamon Rolls. I have made all of them several times and enjoyed eating them. Baking went remarkably smoothly. Not surprisingly, I ran out of butter, but that was easily remedied. Delivery took three rounds, but we eventually got to everyone.
I am not outgoing, so baking something truly special is my way of saying hello without getting stressed. Getting to know my neighbors is something I feel strongly about. This commitment challenges me, because my preference is to "hunker in my bunker." Eventually I might work my way up to a party, but for now I'm happy to imagine the foil coming off and the smiles going on. 
Christ's call to love one another is a real stretcher. He doesn't put limits or guidelines on who to love. When you sit down and really think about it, he calls us to love the torturer as well as the tortured. He calls us to love our bully as well as our savior. He calls us to start right where we are in our lives and neighborhoods and to love everyone indiscriminately. Christmas always presents me with real challenges as I seek to see people the way Jesus does. I'm not very good at it, and sometimes I'm too bitter to listen to the Spirit's helpful hints. It's worth pursuing. Some day we will understand it all.
Pick up the challenge to love this Christmas, even if it's only homemade baked goods. 

Remember Me Not

Remember Me Not
My last mistake
The slip of tongue
The mess I make

Remember Me Not
As Yesterday
For I have found
Another Way

Remember Me Not
With Suffered Sigh
A disappointed
Smile Wry

Remember Me Not
As Others See
Just What they Thought
I used to be

Remember Me Now
Like you, I grew
And God is making
Something New

When He is Finished
With my song,
You'll smile and
Want to sing along

For when He's Done, then
 I'll be 
Worth Remembering

Song Lyrics

Song lyrics say it all sometimes.In the early 1980's, Patty Kennedy of Vineyard Music, a ministry started  by John Wimber, wrote a song with easy lyrics and a melody that tells of a "Glorious event" quite simply:

Just like you promised-- you’ve come
Just like you told us-- you’re here
And my desire is that you know
I love you, I worship you,
I welcome you here  

I Do love you Lord! and I Thank you!! and I Do worship you! and I Welcome you here.You are ALL that we need!.

 Matt Maher's lyrics sums it all up.

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You're my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

It is so very true-Jesus-You are our life....our Love.. our Righteousness...our Holiness...our Center....our Stability...our only Hope!!! Thank you for coming! Thank you for keeping your promise! I CELEBRATE YOU!!

May He Forgive My Wrong Doings

   During this most holy of holidays, or rather "Holy Days", most accurately, this Christmas season, I totally messed up. I know, no one else out there has ever done so, but I did. My daughter told a family member, "You can't say that, it's one of the ten commandments".  I must have been having a stupid moment, because out of my mouth came the most preposterous thing. "That isn't one of the ten commandments, is it"? Then my husband quoted to me, "Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord Thy God in vein"? Oh yeah! I was having a totally off day and I don't know why, but then, out of my mouth came, "I guess I focus on the big ones, like, don't murder and steal". What! Really?
    As these ridiculous words came out of my mouth, a verse came to my mind, Mathew 5:19, "Whosoever therefore shall break one of these least commandments, and shall teach men so, he shall be called the least in the kingdom of heaven: but whosoever shall do and teach them, the same shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven".
    I still am baffled by my stupidity that day, but perhaps I was allowed to say those things to make myself and/or others, dig into the Bible. I am now, in the process of reading and studying the verses before and after that one. Is that verse speaking about the ten commandments? Is it going deeper? Do I need to seriously get a clue, and realize that the commandments are not simply ten in all, but rather everything God tells us to do? I don't know entirely at this point, but I know this. God is giving me a smack of some sort. I need to pay attention and learn from my stupid moment. Also, for the record, it is very important to do all the commandments and teach others to do so. They are there to benefit us and keep us safe. Just like when we tell our children not to put their hand in a fire. Our goal is for them to be safe, not for us to be in charge, or a killjoy.
   Least in the Kingdom of God, is not may goal people. To glorify God is. May He forgive my wrong doings, and teach me how to speak in a way that brings glory to Him, always.